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我回想到我一生最糟糕的狀況有三樁，第一件，就是我發生了一個意外之時。我跳到游泳池裡，那個游泳池比我想像的淺，我的頭就撞到游泳池的底，我的頸椎就斷了。真的是一個奇蹟，我毋須淪落到坐輪椅度日。到現在我什麼事也沒有！
第二件是我在攻讀博士的時候，如果有人讀過博士，就知道這是非常辛苦的；面臨各種截止日期，會有很多壓力，你必須相當用功。我讀到第三年的時候，我申請一個獎學金，可以到溫哥華去；萬事俱備，只欠論文，就去得成了。可是到最後一個月的時候，每件事的問題都接踵而來，我就沒有辦法如期提出論文。我的獎學金沒了，我在西班牙的合同也被取消了；所以到最後，我什麼都沒有，也哪兒都沒去。我想過回我父母家住，因為我只剩光棍一個。那真是個困境！
第三個是很簡單的，就是我的女朋友拋棄了我，老天！那真是苦！為什麼我說這些呢？現在，隨著時間的消逝，我回想這同樣的三件事，本來是最苦的，後來卻變成是最好的。
由於我在游泳池的意外事件，當我照X光時，就看到我的骨頭曾經破碎過；因此在西班牙我就不必去服那種可怕的兵役，因為服役要一年，士兵還必須使用武器。當日，他們告訴我不用當兵時，我真是太高興了！
因為我需要轉換我研究的小組，我開始了一個新項目，而得一個很好的結果──這使我有機會到柏克萊讀書。在柏克萊，我就發現佛教，這是最好的！
因為我的女朋友離開我了，所以我就出家了。可能有的人認為這不是很好的，可是其實很好。
所以，你看，我們老是去分別好壞；想要這個、不要那個；其實，我們並不知道什麼對我們比較好。我這麼說，是因為我們在祈禱或是念觀世音菩薩聖號的時候，我們總是這麼說：「喔！請滿我這個願、請滿我那個願！」「請賜予我一個男朋友或一個女朋友！」「讓我不要生病！」「讓我活長一點！」等等。其實我們不知道什麼是對我們最好的。所以，我們只要有誠心、有信心，發生在我們身上的，總是最好的，不用掛心求那麼多！
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I was thinking about the worst moments in my life and I found three. The first one was when I had an accident, I jumped into a swimming pool that was too shallow so I hit my head on the bottom and I broke my neck. It was a little miracle that I did not end up in a wheel chair. But here I am nothing happened!
The second one was during my PhD studies. For those who have gone through a PhD you would know it’s a very hard time you have to work very hard, and there’s a lot of stress for dead lines. I had been working for three years and I had attained very nice fellowship to go to Vancouver. Everything was ready for me to present the thesis and traveled to Vancouver. But the last month, various problems occurred one after another. Finally the time came to present the thesis and I couldn’t present it. I lost the fellowship; I lost the contract I had in Spain, so I didn’t go to Spain and was left without anything. I was thinking about going back to my parents’ house, I had nothing. It was a very hard time.
The third one is very simple. It was when my girl friend left me. Man! That was suffering. Why I say these? Now after time has past, I look back at them the very same three things were the most difficult ones have turned out to be the best.
Because of the accident I had in the swimming pool, when I took X-ray, I saw a very nice broken bone. Due to that I could avoid the military service in Spain which was horrible. The service was for one year and soldiers have to use weapons. The day they told me that I couldn’t go to the military service, I was really happy!
Because I had to change the group of my research, I began a new thing and it was very fruitful. Because of the good result, I went to Berkeley. At Berkeley, I found Buddhism which was really good!
Because my girlfriend left me, I left home. Maybe some people think that’s not so nice, but it is!
So you see, we tend to decide what’s good and bad, I want this and don’t want that, but in reality, we don’t know what’s better. I say this, because when we pray or recite Gwan Yin’s name, we always say, “Oh, I want this and I want that, please!” “Bring me a boyfriend or a girlfriend!” “I don’t want this sickness!” “I want to live longer!” In reality, we don’t know what’s better for us, so all we have to do is to be sincere, to really have faith. If you recite with faith, the best is what you will always get! Don’t bother asking for things.
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