恒謹師原籍安徽桐城,民國十年〈1921〉出生於東北吉林省,在護產專校
畢業後,分派到吉林市小豐滿醫院服務。因不忍見傷患哀叫呻吟,而商請醫師儘速診治,並細心照料,病患感恩,呼之為「白衣天使」。
十二歲時,日本入侵東北,成立偽滿洲國,導致世界大戰。曾聽上人開示「若想侵奪他國土地財富,必先向人民增加稅收,製造殺人武器,訓練人民子弟作戰。『爭城以戰,殺人盈城;爭地以戰,殺人盈野。』殺到兩敗俱傷,未有所得。如是領導國家,是愛你的國家人民?是害你的國家人民?三思之!」走過日本侵華的慘痛歷史,體驗出上人的話真是最具智慧的法語。
小學讀世界史,聽到釋迦牟尼佛的名字即心生歡喜。稍長,一次殺魚,刮鱗時心想「這不是像人剝皮嗎?
」魚曲屈躍起,把她嚇哭了,以後每拜大悲懺就發願:「我要生生世世素食,沾魚沾肉就要我嘔吐瀉肚,以除葷食。」
有次唸《地藏經〉時,為地藏菩薩的大願深受感動。臺灣習俗,農曆七月〈俗稱鬼月〉舉行普度,祭品都是雞鴨魚肉,因此每年農曆七月,必在佛前每天唸一部《地藏經》,希望被殺的眾生往生善道。
臺灣孩童沉迷於連環畫,於是她以白話將《地藏經》簡短寫出,讓兒童有機會知道《地藏經》,從小孝順父母,明白因果;又有人畫上插圖,她印了一千本,略表弘法利生的心願。
一九八二年比丘恆實師在金輪聖寺講《華嚴經》,她約了兩個女兒、女婿前往聽講。當時由恆實師消文,上人補
充,聽了數次即偕同兩女皈依上人座下 ,法名果文,後來上人改果問。
1982年萬佛城山門落成典禮,她很
想來參加,但值長女考會計師,小孫子需要人照顧。上人說:「妳要是去,她準考上。」典禮時,上人高聲宣布:「凡所有入佛門弟子,皆蒙佛光普照,諸事如意吉祥成就。」長女果然通過。
此後年年來聖城拜萬佛寶懺。一次去大殿途中,遇上人慢悠悠地念著「掃一切法,離一切相。」自己日誦《金剛經》,數年不解其意,此時豁然心開
,心中歡喜,當下決定依止上人出家。
八八年元旦在聖城拜見上人後,說:「不走啦!」上人問:「妳想出家?」「是,我想出家。」是年六月十六日
於金山聖寺剃度,接著學習律儀;八九 年聖城辦水陸空大法會,並傳三壇大戒 ,九月三日圓滿具戒。
恒謹師願以波羅提木叉為師,在聖城與道友和合共住,銷煩惱,除塵垢, 早成佛道。
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Bhikshuni Heng Jin Shi's family was
originally from Tong-cheng County of An-hui Province in
China. She herself was born in 1921 in Ji-lin Province,
Manchuria. After graduating from school trained as a nurse
and mid-wife, she was assigned to Xiao Fen-man Hospital in
Ji-lin City. While at work she couldn't bear to see the
patients moan in anguish and would often beg the doctors to
treat them as soon as possible, thus earning the title
"angel in white."
When she was twelve, Japan invaded China
and established a puppet government- the Manchu Empire. This
act eventually led to the Second World War. She once read an
instructional talk in which the Venerable Master said, "A
leader who wants to invade other countries must raise the
tax, build weapons, and train the people in warfare. 'A
fight over a city results in casualties filling up the city;
a fight in the field leaves the field filled with
casualties.' You may fight, but there is no ultimate victor,
Would you say that such a leader loves the people or harms
them? This is something we ought to think over." Having
personally experienced the Japanese invasion, she could not
think of any words wiser than these.
As an elementary student, she was
delighted when she heard Shakyamuni Buddha's name in a World
History class. Once as she was scraping the scales off of a
fish, she thought, "Isn't this like peeling the skin off of
a person?" The fish twisted and jumped in pain, and she was
frightened to tears. Since then, when she bows the Great
Compassion Repentance she always vows, "I shall be a
vegetarian in life after life. Whenever I taste meat, I
shall vomit and suffer diarrhea, causing me to refrain from
eating meat."
She was deeply touched by the great vows
of the Earth Store Bodhisattva while reading the Earth Store
Sutra. During the seventh lunar month (also known as the
"month of ghosts"), it is a Taiwanese custom to make
elaborate offerings of all kinds of meat dishes. She would
recite the Earth Store Sutra every day during that month,
praying that the animals killed would be reborn in a better
place.
Observing that children in Taiwan liked
reading comics, she wrote the Earth Store Sutra in simple
colloquial style, hoping that children would learn to be
filial to their parents and understand the workings of cause
and effect. Someone illustrated the book, and she printed
one thousand copies to fulfill her wish of benefiting living
beings.
In 1982 when Bhikshu Heng Sure lectured
the Avatamsaka Sutra at Gold Wheel Monastery in Los Angeles,
she invited two of her daughters and their husbands to
attend. After attending a few lectures, she and the two
daughters took refuge with the Venerable Master. She was
given the Dharma name Guo Wen ("literary fruits"). Later the
Master changed her name to Guo Wen ("fruits of
questioning").
In 1982 she wished to attend the
celebration of the completion of the mountain gate of the
City of the Ten Thousand Buddhas, but since her eldest
daughter was preparing to take the exam for public
accountants, she had to babysit her young grandson. The
Venerable Mater told her, "If you come, I guarantee that
your daughter will pass the exam." During the ceremony, the
Venerable Master gave his blessings: "All of you who have
come to Buddhism will be bathed in the Buddha's light and
everything would be auspicious for you." Her daughter passed
the exam.
From then on she would come to bow the
Ten Thousand Buddhas Repentance every year. One time on her
way to the Buddha Hall, she saw the Venerable Master
reciting, "Sweep away all Dharmas and be apart from all
marks," as he walked slowly. She had been reciting the Vajra
Sutra daily for several years and could not fathom the
meaning of this passage, but now suddenly she understood.
She was so delighted that she decided right then and there
to enter the monastic life under the Venerable Master.
On the New Year's Day of 1988 after she
bowed to the Venerable Master she said, "I am not leaving
anymore." The Venerable Master asked, "So you want to enter
the monastic life?" "Yes." Her head was shaved on June 16th
and she started studying the precepts and the rules of
deportment. The next year during a Water, Land and Air
Dharma Session, a full ordination was also held at the City.
She was ordained as a Bhikshuni on September 3rd.
Heng Jin Shi vows to take the precepts as
her teacher and wishes to live in harmony with all fellow
cultivators, so that we may all get rid of our afflictions
and attain Buddhahood soon.
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