果舟居士來接我們到洛杉磯金輪聖寺去與上人會面。當他剛見到我們時說道:「希望沒有擾亂你們的計劃。」「我們不做任何計劃。」我們回答。
這天傍晚洗臉時,比丘問:「你不洗?」果舟答:「臉,我已經洗了,但就是無法洗去心裡的塵垢。」
比丘說:「這就是《華嚴經》裡所形容的,只有佛是富有萬德,蕩無纖塵。」
果舟說:「在充滿塵土的高速公路旁禮拜,這真是性靈上最好的沐浴!」他展出笑靨又說:「這是我所參加過最妙的禪七。」
我們從未將這次朝山視為一個「七」,因為所有的「七」都是有始有終的。可是,禮拜這個法門對我們而言,是一種修行的境界,而不只是軀體的俯身致敬。禮拜是念茲在茲,恆常不變,降伏狂心的法門。這種常住的真心是無我相,無人相,無眾生相,無壽者相。這種的境界是無過去未來,視現在為真空寂靜。
禮拜,是不被聲色所動搖,是時刻迴光返照,也就是「真認自己錯,莫論他人非。」是以慈悲喜捨為用,普遍迴向所有功德,是藉以回到自性本來面目的道路。
果舟的考驗
綿綿細雨中,我們三人在一條僻靜空曠的路上禮拜著。忽然間,有一部類似飛車黨似的摩托車呼嘯而至,停在果舟車旁。我們從未見過如此強悍跋扈的人物,他滿臉大鬍子,黑皮夾克,刺青,體重大約有二百五十磅。身旁的皮鞘裡插著一把長形的鋼製獵刀,腰上繞著粗鐵鏈。這人一手抓著車把手,一手放在獵刀柄上,銳利的目光,正一瞬也不瞬地盯著在他車前幾步禮拜的果舟,企圖以透視的審查,研判果舟。
果舟依然繼續地拜著,這是他同我們一起拜的最後一天,明天他就要回去了。這時這位騎士緩緩地跨下車,走向果舟的車子,臉上毫無表情地從皮夾克裡掏出十塊錢,用力地擲向果舟車子上的天線,再慢慢地走回他的摩托車,整理好夾克,猛力地踩著摩托車的引擎,仍然面無表情地與果舟相視一看,點頭表示嘉許,然後揚車而去。
當一個人禮拜時,一切外境都由於心念的感召。心中慈悲平安,則得到同樣的回報。心中生出瞋怒障礙的念頭時,外面的環境就變得一團糟,危機四伏。
這就是《華嚴經》裡所說,心中如何想,外面就怎樣回應,就像照鏡子一樣。這位飛車黨是來考驗果舟的誠意,果舟通過了這次的試探。
我們把老爺車留在一位自願為我們修護車子的居士家中。然後與果舟驅車南下,他說:「這次隨你們拜了幾天,也使我開了一點小悟,我再也不需要為將來訂任何計劃了。」他的臉上露出如釋重擔的喜悅。
我們在一處隱僻的路旁睡了一宿。裹著氈子在天未亮之前,燃了一炷香做早課,然後開車往金輪聖寺。
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Kuo Chou offered to drive us to L.A. to meet with the Master this weekend. When he first arrived he said, "Hope it doesn't disturb your plans." "We have no plans;" we replied.
At the end of the day we were washing up.
Monk: "Wash up?"
David: "I already did but I can't get the dust out of my mind."
Monk: "Like in the Avatamsaka where it says the Buddha 'is wealthy with ten thousand virtues, and cleansed without the finest dust."'
David: "Bowing this dirty highway is a great spiritual bath. It's wonderful!" grinning, "This is the best meditation session yet."
We never thought of the bowing as a session. Sessions have a beginning and an end. But we don't think of the bowing as beginning or ending. Bowing has become a state of mind, no longer just prostrations. Bowing is constantly practicing "being here and now" and subduing the busy mind. It is the heart that is unmarked by self or others, living beings or a lifespan. It's the mind that doesn't dwell in the past or future and takes the present as it comes, still and empty.
Bowing is not being moved by forms and sounds. Always returning the light to illumine within, bowing is just" recognizing our own faults and not discussing the faults of others. "Bowing is taking kindness, compassion, joy, and giving as our function and universally transfering merit and virtue to all beings everywhere as our
work. Bowing is borrowing a path to go back home.
David's "Test"
Three of us were bowing in a light drizzle on a quiet, empty road. Suddenly a Hell's Angel-looking biker roars up and parks right next to Kuo Chows car. He's as tough and mean as any character we've seen. Full beard, black leather, tattoos, insignias, and weighing at least 250 lbs. There's a long bowie knife strapped to his side and heavy steel chain around his waist. He fixes a penetrating and tension-filled stare at Kuo Chou who is bowing a few feet in front of his big Harley. One hand resting over his elevated handle bars, the other on his knife, he silently judges.
Kuo Chou keeps bowing. It's his last day before heading back. Slowly the biker dismounts and walks over to Kuo Chou's car. He hasn't showed any emotion, just like granite. He reaches into his leather jacket and pulls out a ten-dollar bill and slams it down through the car antenna. Slowly he strolls back, mounts up, adjusts his jacket, and jump-kicks his bike with a roar. He stares at Kuo Chou to make sure they make eye contact, and then without the slightest expression, nods his head in approval and pulls out.
When you bow you get back exactly what you put out. Show kindness and kindness returns. Think peaceful and peacefulness comes back. But if your thoughts are angry and obstructive, then life on the road can become miserable and even dangerous.
"As one thinks, so one receives in return," say the Avatamsaka. And what you receive mirrors what's on your mind. The biker came to inspect David's sincerity and spirit. It was David's test. He passed.
We left the Plymouth with the McCauleys who live in a red log house in the steep, wooded hills above Cambria. Young Dan McCauley offered to repair and tune-up the wagon. It needs it.
As we drove South, Kuo Chou said, "I was bowing and I had a small eye opener. I realized, "Hey, I don't have to have any plans either."He looked happy and pounds lighter in the face.
We slept at the dead-end of a frontage road below the Gaviota Pass. Before Dawn, we put a stick of incense in the ash tray and did morning chants together bundled in blankets, and then headed for Gold Wheel Temple in L.A.
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